Pathological Panic

You know it’s not good news when the doctor that tells you about your cancer diagnosis offers to ring your GP and make an appointment for you. I remember her saying, “This is a more unusual and aggressive type of breast cancer. You need to move quickly. Not as in ‘days’ but certainly in the next two weeks.’ Then they give you a dumbed down letter telling you it’s cancer and sealed envelopes for your GP and surgeon. Of course, you open them.

Here’s the diagnosis from my pathology report:



– Poorly differentiated adenocarcinoma

– Possibilities include a triple negative primary carcinoma of the breast or secondary adenocarcinoma

Okay, first up it’s my LEFT breast. Thinking back to the biopsy procedure I remember they’d had a technician (cytologist?) come up from pathology to be present while they took the sample. She came into the waiting room, didn’t say hello and sat at the far end with her eyes down. I’m guessing they’d already told her I had cancer. Everything about her demeanour said ‘I went into pathology to avoid contact with humans’. When we walked into the room to have the biopsy done I introduced myself and tried to make her smile. Just before they started the procedure, when her back was to me, I said, ‘Make sure you’ve got the right breast….and by that I mean the correct breast.’  It’s my nature to try to be funny, or at least light hearted in stressful situations. Of course, I was on a table with my LEFT breast exposed so there’s really no excuse.

And at this point in time, having the wrong beast on the pathology was the least of my worries. I knew I was the only person that day to have five biopsies so I was pretty sure this was my report. Most worrying was the possibility that the cancer was secondary. The doctor giving me the news reassured us that this was ‘unlikely’ but you can’t help worrying.

For those that are interested in the detail, here’s the rest of the relevant pathology. Feel free to skip over this bit.


Cluster of suspicious nodules right breast 10 o’clock

1  10cm – corex3

2  8cm FN – FNA x 2

3  6cm FN – FNA x 2

(That cm measurement is the distance from my nipple, not the size of the nodules. At the time they told be the largest one was ‘about 9mm’)


The aspirate from both sides ….contain numerous loosely cohesive sheets of cells.

Single intact cells are also present in the background.

Bare bipolar nuclei are absent.

The features are consistent with carcinoma.

Sections of both cores show infiltrating single cells and cords of cells which are poorly differentiated. They are surrounded by dense sclerosis.

Immunoperoxidase stains:

Positive: AE1/AE3, e-cadherin, CK5/6 (stains the cells not the myoepithelial layer), Cal9-9, CK19 and CK7

Negative: Oestrogen receptor, progesterone receptor, TTF-1, napsin A, CA125, chromogranin, synaptophysin and CK20.

The report says that the HER-2 result will follow but the triple negative diagnosis can’t be made without a negative HER-2 so we assumed that. It was later confirmed.


Don’t you just love Google. It’s possible to type in bits of your pathology report, along with words like ‘cancer test’ or ‘pathology test’ and get a reasonable idea of what most of this means. Asking doctors is useful, but they tend to give general responses like, “Those results refer to different types of tests they do on the cells in order to determine whether or not it’s cancer, and what type of cancer it is.”

I was also given a great little book by the counsellor and BreastScreen when I received my diagnosis. It’s called Guide for Women With Early Breast Cancer. It’s government funded, and prepared by the National Breast and Ovarian Cancer Centre. If you’ve recently been diagnosed with breast cancer this is a wonderful resource. It’s also included in a brilliant package you can get from Breast Cancer Network Australia at

Using my computer and my book I was able to figure out the following:

‘Poorly differentiated’ refers to how different the cells are from your normal cells. The less like normal cells, the more advanced/aggressive the cancer. ‘Poorly differentiated’ is not a good thing.

In my case, my cancer is defined by the things that it isn’t. The most common forms of breast cancer have receptors on the cancer cells. Many of the modern cancer drugs have been designed to target these receptors. I don’t have receptors for oestrogen, progesterone or HER-2 (a potein that affects how quickly cells divide). Missing all three receptors means it’s called ‘triple negative’.

So none of the new drugs were going to be any use to me.

When you search ‘triple negative breast cancer’ you discover that it’s rare, more aggressive and compared to other breast cancers it has a poorer prognosis, which is a polite way of saying it’s more likely to kill you. About here the panic started to set in.

I wanted ductal carcinoma in situ.

I wanted my left breast surgically removed immediately.

I wanted to wake up and discover it had all been a nightmare.

Most of all, I wanted an appointment with a surgeon TOMORROW. Of course, you can never get that. The soonest appointment I could get, even with my beautiful husband pleading to the receptionist, was eight days away.





4 thoughts on “Pathological Panic

  1. Meg I love the way you write – so honest and raw – your cancer has been a huge wake up call to myself and Paul that we must change our diets / alcohol consumption / cigarette smoking – bad stuff goes out – only good stuff in and on our bodies from now on in. You are in our thoughts and prayers. Thanks for sharing x

  2. Meg, my name is Joy I live in Wollongong and have just started reading your blog. I have only gotten to your second entry in August but our stories sound very similar as does our time line I eventually had surgery on 22/10/13 for what turned out to be Triple Negative Breast Cancer…. followed by aggressive chemo (which has left me with permanent heart damage) and aggressive radiation. I haven’t met anyone who is triple negative so good to know I am not alone.

    • Hi Joy,
      You are NOT alone. There are plenty of us with triple negative breast cancer and if you want to you can join the Breast Cancer Australia Network and they have a triple negative group. There’s also a triple negative breast cancer foundation that is my ‘go to’ website for all the current research. Here’s the link:
      My very best wishes to you, Joy. It helps me to remember that even though there’s a lot of media about triple negative being ‘rare and aggressive’ it still has a much better prognosis that a whole lot of other cancers. XXX

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